the war with self

i love you, self
in your most downer moments
in your most depressive thoughts
in your complete isolation of mind
(as people pass you by, even touching you)

i love you
we are still alive
maybe alone
maybe
alone

but you're dying with me
and know that i love you
in your most downer moments
in your most depressive thoughts
in your complete isolation of mind
as people pass you by

as long as we're both still breathing
let's have that drink
that we deserve

.....

am i the only one
who ponders
"where do the suicides go?"

like the movie
what dreams may come
maybe

i will never believe some suicides
deserve hell

an ongoing list, updated every so often... that i might find...

sylvia plath
david foster wallace

(among the first that come to mind, besides the fictional characters:
anna karenina
madame bovary
*kate chopin's character in "the awakening")